he asked me to go on a trip to florida with him, and i reallllllly want to go, i need a vacation. but im getting the feeling that he asked me out of spite just to say he asked me. im pretty sure he would have more fun and be able to let go if i wasnt there. which is why im telling him i dont want to go.
then he drops a bomb and slyly mentions that his coupld of "friends" are coming in town in a couple weeks. one friend being his ex girlfriend who hes cheated on other girls for. i dont want to be jealous, i dont want to sound crazy, i really dont. but this BUGS the shit outta me.
i dont want to be insecure or jealous, its not an attractive quality on a girl. i dont want to say anything, but your track record led me to be like this. after all you did hook up with my good friend, the day after i fucked you.

i dont know what to say, i guess ill go on a vacation on my own.

BUUUUMMMEEEDDD

a couple of weeks ago, i made plans to go to san fran for a weekend. ever since, i have been checking out hotel prices and saving money, only to find out that now i have no one to go with. im super bummed. i dont even know why i got my hopes up, it was probably never going to happen anyways. whatever, maybe i dont need to be going anyways, maybe ill buy myself a new phone instead.

always the baby

i most definately need to write in this thing more, from now on i am going to try and commit to writing in this thing at least once a week. i want to document my life as a twenty-year-old. so being, i recently found an id and now have the ability to go out and drink. i feel like i have been waiting to become 21 for far too long now. i am forever going to be a baby.


i also am in love with these deena & ozzy cheetah print low heels. someone pleaseeeeee purchase them for me. fuck it, ill sell myself for clothes i need.